may 6 2006

Some time ago Nyo's computer broke down and a friend offered to bring an old one she still had.
But her bussy life prevented her from coming earlier than today.

Luckily she planned to come in the afternoon, so I had plenty of time to clean and tidy and remove all the vacationtraces.
Bit by bit, as I was almost too tired to move around.

I had skipped bagpipelesson as I was too tired. Asked Djenné to tell the teacher.
Luckily I mailed too the evening before, as Jim just wanted to go home after the lesson and didn't care to inform the teacher.
Unbelievable!!

Hannah came with a friend.
It was strange to meet someone from internet.
We had a polite conversation, not going into something. Maybe because Nyo was present too, I don't know.
It felt a bit awkward.
Jim bought a plant I absolutely disliked.... but she said she liked it.
And she seemed to mean it too.

Stef reformatted the thing and then we had some quiet, untill Lars started to complain he wanted a computer too.
Ofcourse Jim jumped on it, although I'd told him to ignore it.

I went for a walk round the lake with Thami.
I'm so fed up with the whole lot.
A friend online of an ADHD group asked if he could help me.
But I only vent here... I'm too tired of explaining...
Luckily Nyo fell asleep well.
Restarting the Melatonine makes clear that the stuff is a tremendous help to him, so I wonder if the pineal gland has something to do with his problems.

Now he has a computer I hope some rest will come back here, and I'll be able to catch up on online activities.

may 5 2006

Another bad night.
It was a chain of short naps.
I fell asleep long after the birds woke up, so it must have been around half past seven, seven.
Djenne woke me up to ask for her glasses.... at 7.45!!

Yesterday I found her glasses at a place they shouldn't be, and not in the little case she got for them.
So I took them away.

Nyo kept rather OK for a while, and then the whole lot of crap started again.

And then ofcourse Thami got irritated, and Stef, and their father.... and the whole nuthouse was complete again.
Pffff.... now tell me who's the only adult here in the house??

The band performed in another town and I had planned to go with the girls, but as I'm the only one who can keep them all under control, the girls went with their father.

Ofcourse Nyo badmouthed me again, but this time there was none to distract the attention, so I told him that he'd either stay calm and out of my way, or I'd otherwise take other steps.
And he wouldn't be able to go to school again on monday.
Other kids would dream to get such a threat, but he really was shocked.
Go-o-oo-od!!!

Surprisingly he fell asleep (started the Melatonine yesterday again.). So I was right yesterday when I said he was too tired.

But already I was far too exhausted... so I only could cry.

And then I was called to ask where the band was performing... grrrr....Why can't they do something without me?

Not too much later I checked the mail and found a mail from our doc.
Lars doesn't have Pfeiffer, and he had discussed the hyperhomocystenemia and treatment was changed: I could skip 75% of the meds for it.
No way!!
I tried that before and I started to feel very bad, more day after day.

I asked him for the scientific articles.
Als told him about Nyo's behaviour, so he's up to date again.

Had a look on internet.
The specialist is retiring this year, and a large study has started.

So another day of beautiful weather passed, and I've seen nothing.
Cancelled my bagpipeslesson for tomorrow. I'm too tired.

may 4 2006

Asked Jim to stay at home, to help with the kids.
he did, and made no trouble yesterday.br>But today...

He went to get some groceries and didn't return until it was four hours later.
Help?

I guess the rest of the day he had withdrawal symptoms from work>
He even tossed a whole pot of Nyo's pills across the room because he couldn't break a tiny one and I could. LOL!

Yinti got her new glasses.
One of them was a Haribo. At home we saw two little white bears at the end.
Just like here



Got a mail from the psychiatrist, so that was fast.
She sounded very nice. She agreed with a bit higher dose of his meds, and no melatonin.
Well, we saw the miracle of melatonin, so I gave it, and he fell asleep just like before we stopped.
Maybe all the problems of Nyo have to do with stopping melatonin???
Officially that can't be.
Well, we'll see.

Today was just another bad day.

may 3 2006

Another day.....
I wasn't too happy when I went to sleep.
The blinds Jim made for the window came off.
Just broke off.

I got them against my head but was in time to catch them before they broke the things on the windowsill.

Turned out he didn't attach them the way i told him, but the way that was in the description.
I remembered the same problems we had some years ago with the blinds downstairs. And ofcourse he didn't.

Oh...I was so angry!!

When I woke up this morning I was still bodily stressed.

Jim had his day off, and it was today just like having another ADHD'er in the house.

He had used his showergel that gives me asthma-attacks and ofcourse it happened again.
Well, this great wonder of absent love told me it was all between my ears and how could I get an asthma attack without knowing which kind he had used?

Oh... some men have no logic, but the wrong logic!!
I don't need to know what is used...asthma just sets in by it's own. It's a bodily reaction.
I sat in my room, but it was too hot without the blinds, so I ended sitting on the stairs.
I was really angry!!

The boys were a constant pain.
Lars left, but the others still kept nagging at each other and arguing.
I had to go to them so many times..., that I told Jim to go.
He can't cope with them at all, but he's too lazy to walk the stairs and these times he had to. LOL!

So today I acted as matron and only jumped in after he had given the basic stuff to the boys. LOL!

Again Nyo was showing behaviour like his meds were not working.
We have a medicationcontrol appointment for next week, thursday. But he was in such a state that I mailed the psychiatry department and asked for a medication adjustment, because I wouldn't dare to let him go to school next week.
I think he felt the same, because he calmly went with me when I told him to go on the scales.

About half an hour later it was an argument again. He was yelling and all the lot.
So I got him downstairs again, and this time I put him on a chair, far from the table. In the right position to see my computerscreen. I then put on a little movie about hickups. Some stupid medical info-thing.
That calmed him down... Pffff.

They got nothing for desert. Just healthy food and no sugary desert or whatever afterwards.

About 2 hours later it started again.
Luckily it was somewhat after Nyo had taken his meds.
So I ordered Thami downstairs, and Nyo to bed.
Stef started to call him names, so I got Nyo to my bed.
Woohoo, he was soo mad! But I was even more angry, so I sounded as calm as could be and told him to go to sleep. NOW!!
He feel asleep within two minutes.

Stef however was still trying to tell Jim that Nyo was bothering him this way, and that way, and every way...
ttt...tttt
I took a look around the door and saw he was lying.
So I told him I wanted a word later...
Tsssss... Then he told me all sorts of things, including that he would smash me as hard that I would land on the floor.
Well, none is going to tell me that, so I told him that before I would call the police if he would do that, I would for sure hit his balls so hard that he wouldn't even know he had none anymore for the first 24 hours afterwards. (Sorry for those who feel offended.)
Then I slowly turned and went...
Ofcourse he didn't dare come after me. LOL!

Downstairs I looked if psychiatry had reacted about adapting Nyo's meds to his weight.
Noop.

Had a long talk with Thami, to make him understand that both Stef and Nyo can't deal with all the changes: vacation, sudden change of temperature (Two days ago it was freezing at night, and now it was above 25 degrees celcius in the afternoon, etc etc.

Luckily Djenné was to a pyama party, and Yinti was here asleep.

Days like these are so exhausting!
When kids are at an institution they give them a shot with a tranquilizer or so, but at home parents can deal with the fullblown problems.