Welcome to my journal.
It's about my life, my feelings and my family.
6 children.
The twins,
Nyo (14, autistic),
Thami (15, dyslectic and ADHD),
Lars (17),
Stef (20 ADD and Asperger),
and their father (PDD-Nos, autistic traits).

This blog is not written to offend, but it's a way to vent.
I'm allowed to.
I'm managing a nuthouse. LOL!

june 21

Hi!

I'm feeling a bit better.
But not after I was working on the membership page and saw some badges didn't load well and after I got the same badges twice on the page. I didn't see it before the next day. LOL!

Yesterday I tried to get rid of the tiredness by getting matters straightened out after the loss of the seasonpages.
I still have adoptions, but I don't want to transfer them to another site without asking. And the memberships need to be on this site too.

I hate administration, especially when I'm tired, as I'm more apt to make mistakes.
I hope I'm doing well, though. But please be kind when I ask permission for the so-maniest time.

But oh, do I enjoy all those cuties.
They really cheer me up.
They also amaze me. How talented some people are!!
It makes me feel so grateful that the artists and adoptionshoppe owners want to share them.

I know there are people who copy and steal, but I want to adopt in full trust and appreciation for the artists and shoppe-owners.
Occasionally I also adopt "colored lineart".
If people can't do more that coloring and it's very well done, I'm OK with that, as long as they credit the lineart.
It doesn't make my appreciation for the inspiration of original artists any less. On the contrary.

The weather has been crap: grey and looking like rain.
In the morning we had some rain, spoiling the plans. Then the boys came home. It's test week, so they're home early.

In the evening I got pain in one of my kidneys. So I guess part of the tiredness was due to the kidney not working well.
I drank loads of water and went to bed.

monday june 19 2006

I'm exhausted. Drained. Empty.

Yesterday afternoon I suddenly started to cry and couldn't stop, and this afternoon the same happened.

It all started when I saw a brooch on . that remembered me of my english aunt. Just a few pounds, but I didn't even have that.
There's no balance in my life. There's too much taking care of others.

friday june 16 2006

Finally the temperature has gone own inside the house too.
So I slept a couple of hours. Woke up to wake up Thami and fell asleep again.
When I came down Jim had forgotten to buy bread and went with the girls, who had a day off.
After a quick shower I came down and Stef was home again from his one hour of school(!!!).
He was going to watch the girls while we were to the meeting about Nyo at his school.

Because Lars has my bike, I had to walk to the busstation. On my way I saw Jim and the girls going home....

Ofcourse Jim came 2 minutes late for the right bus.
We arrived at school a couple of minutes late...

We were invited for the meeting after Nyo (autistic) had again an anger attack at the arts class.
The teacher can't deal with the pupils, so matters go out of hand. And then he can't stop the bullying anymore, Nyo gets confused.
Under normal circumstances there's a teacher assistant, but he wasn't there that day.
Nyo tried to leave the classroom, which was good.
But other kids prevented him going...
So Nyo started slapping around.......

Well, ofcourse that behaviour can't be tolerated.
So we looked at the options for next year.
But not before I pointed out that all went well untill his therapy stopped, and the final exams of the olders kids started.
Which meant there was no chance for a decent and quiet lunch, and a feeling of stress all over the place.
Both the educator and Nyo's mentor agreed.

Well, there are not much options for next year.

The school which would be better able to deal with his problems had too low...far too low a learning level.
There's another school, but there's a lack of social contact... being only for severe autistic kids.

Another option is homeschooling.
I've said before it sounds to be a good option, but then they were against it.
Well, it's allowerd here only under very special circumstances. Being mainly some religions.

So next year he's going to school, but is able to homeschool when things go wrong again.
They'll support us.
I also suggested to create a special group for kids like Nyo.
Maybe special funding can be created out of the funds for special care they now receive, like therapy.

After this talk, we asked to speak with one of the teachers about the troubles of wednesday.
Like I expected i got a completely different story. With a good explanation why he took the girl in a special grip to remove her from the school area.
Well, that girls can be very happy the school doesn't want to press charges.

At home I talked about this with Lars and got some very troubling information.
The people the school thought to be friends of the girl, weren't.
They were part of a kind of gang of that trouble maker we call The Joker.
So I have to let the school know that. They were there to fight, and luckily they had gone for something to eat when the turmoil was at its worst.

Whenever we get the chance to move abroad we will.
This is not the country we want to live in.

thursday june 15 2006

Last day of the evening four days marches for the girls.
They walked only 5 km each evening.
The weather seems to be autumn, so M. took offered to take them in the car with her own kids, like she did all other evenings, and Jim was supposed...ordered.... to wait a km before the finish to give all the kids of the group flowers.

So I called him, and told him which flowers to bring... and he brought the wrong ones...

I had to rewrap them all individually...

The girls being away, and the weather not nice, gave me the chance to talk with Lars and Thami.

So I got a more detailed story, and had the chance to offer them a different angle to view at the matter.

A normal sound gitl doesn't go to a place where she knows she'll get in trouble.
And she could be arrested for tresspassing, as the school terrain is not the place for her to go.

Witnessing might seem to stand up for a friend, but they're so full of anger, that I doubt they have been silent. So they might face charges too.
That got them silent.

I haven't slept well the past days, so I'm completely exhausted...

wednesday june 14 2006

An alarming story.

One of the problemkids at school has threatened to hit a girl to death.
She's black and is a friend of Thami's grilfriend.

So I warned the school, and told Thami to tell her to stay away.

But ofcourse she doesn't listen. She's from a part of the Kingdom where people think they are better than others, so she wants to claim the right to go wherever she goes.
Stupid!!

So they were in for a fight.
Thami said he was going to help, Lars said he wanted to go to help Thami.
Well, I couldn't keep Thami from his own school, but told lars not to go.

Ofcourse they went.

The girl arrived and stood at the gate long enough to get eyecontact with another girl, leading to an argument.
She went on the school's terrain and what I understood she and her had a fight, with all sorts of pupils meddling.

The safety man from school took her in a special grip and removed her. "Killing her nearly", as the boys said.

So there was a lot of badmouthing over and over and the police came.

Thami and Lars, amongst other friends, said they would witness if it would get into a courtcase.

It's not hard to tell I was not happy, and they were so white heated that I wanted to hear the other side too.

Well, we have a meeting at school on friday, so that's good.